31st of December, The Last of year 2009

Well... Yesterday just write my blog already... Don't know... Maybe I don't want it 'Die'... Because I know... I don't have so much time to write my blog soon... Well... After open school... I have to prepared hard for my exam... So many exam are waiting me next year... I don't like to go to school... But I can't stopped it... Because this is the rules... The rules of playing a life's game... I can't change the rules... No one can... It is fixed... So... Just follow the rules... Step by step...

Well... Today is 31st already... Don't know... I feel not so comfortable... Not comfortable for what?... Not comfortable to face year 2010... Too many challenge... and too many gossip, bad things and more... More... More... Don't like myself... But love myself... I don't like people... But love people... No one know that... Because they think I'm homosexual... So I can't love, I can't like... Even boys, girls or other people can't accept me... My life will going like that?... Don't know... Leave it to the God or Satan... Hope one of them can help me out from this trouble... I don't wanna stay in my ugly life anymore... I wanna be beautiful... Maybe I'm so childish... Everything I think that it is easy... But in the real... Not so... It change to challenge... And not easy to complete it... And also makes me wanna die...

Well... So much sad case, bad things... Wanna let they go... I don't want take them walk into year 2010 with me... Well... Have to be happy right now... Well... Do everyone will go out tonight?... For count down or dinner... Have to share to everyone... Share, is a action that everyone enjoy... Mm... And now... I will share with you some photos and two song wanna introduce to you too...

'Never gonna be alone' by Nicke, and 'Better in time' by Leona Lewis... The second song can find in my friend's blog... So... Hope you have a happy last day of year 2009 and happy new year... Hope all of you can be better then this year...

Waist so many time to edit my photos... Hope you will like it...

Rain and Tears

Hey hey... I'm back 'gain!... Wow!... Well... Today... Happy... But still wanna stay at home... Well... So late to sleep... Hope my family don't know... Well... I've go to shopping yesterday... Free now... Because I finished my work already!... Ha ha... Not pressure anymore... Free... Free... Free...!

Well... Go to shopping with my family yesterday... Well... We have shop so many place... Sasa, Padini, P&Co, Urban & Co and so many places... Ha ha... Just wanna share with all of you... Don't think too much... Mm... I have buy a trousers at Jusco, and buy a shirt at Romp... Ha ha... Happy... Well... After happy, I have a little bit sad... Because I use my money to buy these shirt... Sad... My 100 dollar... My hundred dollar is gone... Just have 60 dollar only... It waist my money... But it is worth... Maybe have a little proud... Because I don't like other people... Using their parents' money to buy something...( But sometime me too...)... Use my money to buy something, I have a little bit hurt... That my money, and I use them... Mm... I think some of you can't feel this feeling... Because all of you using your parents' money... So don't know the pain when you're trying hard to get the money... Well... Someday you will feel this... Trust me...

Mm... Just one day... Tomorrow is 31st already...the last day of year 2009... Have a little bit sad... Because I don't wanna go back to school... Too many gossip, and I don't wanna to see many people... That weird... Well well well... No rain these day, and no tears these year... Don't know... Can't cry anymore... I think I don't have any tears... Even I face something bad, sad, angry or something that's not good, I can't cry... No tears... Well here have a song wanna share with you... Mm... Maybe I have introduce to you last time... But, one more time to introduce this song... 'Rain and Tears' by Aphrodite's Child... It is a good song, and hope you will enjoy it...

P.S: I also have some photos wanna share with you too... Hope you like it!

My sexy shorts with Romp's shirt...

'Cheese!'

So tight? Well... Okay... Not so...

My dinner in Pasta Zanmai... Taste good!

Take photo with my Milky Macha...

I'm in Pasta Zanmai!

I love this shirt so much... I buy it when I'm stay in Malacca

Sweet pink! I take this photo in my aunt's shop... A Baby House!... Ha ha...

Three Days, two days....

Well well well... Nice to meet all of you 'gain... Does everybody miss me?... Ha ha... Well... I don't think so... Ha ha... Cause everyone is busy now... Mm... Well... I have know something... That 'bout the guy I say that before... Now good... He block me in my MSN... So great... He think that I don't know... But sorry... I always know... He don't wanna be my friend?... Well that's okay... I just let him go... Before I'll be hurt... But now? No hurt anymore... Because I have someone... Someone who cares me, who love me like a friend... No need to sad... Because that call people!... I know, I can't be hurt by people anymore... The world is good, but I'm EVIL! I'm not a good guy... Homosexual?... Well, if all of you ask me this thing before, I'll reject your question... But now, if you ask me now, I'll tell you:' Maybe. But have 80%, YES!'... Why? Why everyone can't just accept Homosexual?... They are normal right?... So?... If people hate me... Okay... Just let them... That won't my problems....

Well well... I have go to Malacca last week... Stay at there 'bout 2 night... Well... I have taking so many photos... In car, in hotel's toilet, in the shopping center and the fitting room... That my favorite... Nice huh?... Well... Just see... Because not everyone like my style... So... Just... Enjoy!... Well... Go there... Just... Have to visit so many museum... and can't take photos there... I have walking in the rain... Because those day always raining... So... Just walking... Ha ha... Wet body!... I have having my 'little spa' in my hotel... Seem like a girl... But... I don't care... Enjoy right?... Ha ha.... Mm... I have buy a big lollipop... Cute... I have buy because I have see a handsome guy there... So... Just wanna see him... Sorry my guy... I still love you... Ha ha...

Well... Go back to Johor to help my aunt... To count the goods... Well well well... That's not so difficult when you hear... But, if you do... It was difficult... So tired there day... Have to count the profit of the goods, and check the list... So many things to do... Well... Now, I can breve... Hahn... My lovely air...

Well well... Only have a few day that year 2009 gone... Ready to welcome a new year... Year 2010... Well...Have a new song wanna introduce to everyone in here 'gain... 'Time to say goodbye' by Andrea Bocelli and Sarah Brigh... This song is very popular to me... A good song... Share with all of you too... So... Good night... And have a nice day too...

Hey... Just smile><

At the window... Outside raining now...

Seem like a rabbit... right?

Wow! Sexy man><... Ha ha...

I wanna buy this shirt... But it's too expensive... So... Let it go....

Well... Still like a girl... Ha ha...

Pink shirt... Love the color...

Did you see... My sexy shorts~

In the hotel's toilet... Beautiful!

Like my glasses so much!!

Acting... acting... acting....

Modeling Life

Hey guys... I'm back 'gain... Well... Have a good news to me... I no need to go back to school anymore... Because I have finished my holidays' tuition already... Ha ha... I feel free now... Mm... I have go back to my hometown a few days ago... To attending a wedding... Ha ha...

Well... On the road... I have take many picture on my father's car... Maybe some of you think that it's ugly... But I think it's beautiful to me... The photos can makes me to walk higher... Be professional... Ha ha... I don't think I will be a model... But I like the camera... That why my hand-phone have camera's function... Ha ha... Mm... I have a little drunk in the wedding... Maybe I have drink so many beer... I drink it just like drink a water... Ha ha... But I have did nothing that night... Ha ha... I still have my first time... Haven't sex with other guys... I'm still 'clean'... Well... I always sleep... After taking photos, I going to sleep... Sleep in the car... Just like a sleep beauty... Ha ha...

Here have some photos that I wanna share to all of you... They take in my father's car and my garden... It looks beautiful... Mm... And then, I wanna introduce some song to all of you... Mm... Just like 'Sober' by Pink, 'Zero Gravity' by David Archuleta... If all of you have some good song, must have to introduce to me... Okay?... Now I wanna some new song... Ha ha...

Well... In the end... I wanna say bye to everyone... This is my shortest post... Ha ha... Well... Hope everyone have a good day... Happy everyday...

Act cute? Maybe...

Don't know what pose is it... Just like this

Missing thing? Yup... Miss my boy

I like this so much... Smile happily

Is it looks good? Yup... I just edit it... Looks like a girl

Who gonna know? God know

Well... Still like before... Hi to everyone here... Well well... December comes... What would you do? Shopping? Chatting? Otaku-ing? Or another else... Mm... I still have go to tuition these day... Oh my God!... Feel so tired everyday... Because everyday wanna use your brain to think... To think the calculation of the Mathematic's exercise... Quiet difficult right?... Well... No more calling my loveliest friend these day... The phone bill come... Well... Last month, I use RM26 to talk with him in phone... Well... I know it's not so good... But in the end... Scold by my stupid mother... I know the bill is so expansive... Well... Now... I'll try my best... Don't use my home phone... But use my cell phone...

Well well... My father go to Taiwan already... So... I think he will come back by 3th December... Mm... One week already... I don't see my father one week... Can't believe it, right?... Well... This is the truth... So... Now... I just have shopping with my mum and sis at Kepong Jusco only... Can't go shopping at Midvalley... So boring... But... I still have ask my Father to buy a bag bag for me too... Well... So happy... I just wanna see the bag as fast as the light...

Well... I have to shopping with my mum and sis... Kepong Jusco... Well... I just wanna buy a sunglasses at there... There have a lot of choices... Well... Use many time to find one sunglasses is suitable for me... Well... In the end... I found it!... It cost RM23.12... Not so expensive right?... And I buy it myself... So hurt... Well... We have go to Nicole to buy some shirt... Well... So nice... There have discount these day... Well... I have choose a shirt... A yellow shirt... Take so many photos in the fitting room there... And when I go home... I have edit my photo... One of those photos of mine was so modeling... So... I have to edit like a model of Nicole... Looks beautiful... So... I just show it to all of you in the end of my blog... Hope all of you like it...

Mm... I have some song wanna to introduce to everyone here... Well... So hard to find these song... But it's worth... Song by Katherine Jenkins... A good vocal from England...'Canto Della Terra', ' I Vow to Three my Country' and ' Vide Cor Meum'... I love her sound so much... And some of you like the jazz type song? or a Blues type song? Well... I also have a good song from 20th Century... 'I don't wanna miss a thing' by Aerosmith... These song quiet good... So... Hope all of you will enjoy it... And the end... Have a nice day to everyone here...

My 'Modeling' photo... Take it in the fitting-room...