31st of December, The Last of year 2009

Well... Yesterday just write my blog already... Don't know... Maybe I don't want it 'Die'... Because I know... I don't have so much time to write my blog soon... Well... After open school... I have to prepared hard for my exam... So many exam are waiting me next year... I don't like to go to school... But I can't stopped it... Because this is the rules... The rules of playing a life's game... I can't change the rules... No one can... It is fixed... So... Just follow the rules... Step by step...

Well... Today is 31st already... Don't know... I feel not so comfortable... Not comfortable for what?... Not comfortable to face year 2010... Too many challenge... and too many gossip, bad things and more... More... More... Don't like myself... But love myself... I don't like people... But love people... No one know that... Because they think I'm homosexual... So I can't love, I can't like... Even boys, girls or other people can't accept me... My life will going like that?... Don't know... Leave it to the God or Satan... Hope one of them can help me out from this trouble... I don't wanna stay in my ugly life anymore... I wanna be beautiful... Maybe I'm so childish... Everything I think that it is easy... But in the real... Not so... It change to challenge... And not easy to complete it... And also makes me wanna die...

Well... So much sad case, bad things... Wanna let they go... I don't want take them walk into year 2010 with me... Well... Have to be happy right now... Well... Do everyone will go out tonight?... For count down or dinner... Have to share to everyone... Share, is a action that everyone enjoy... Mm... And now... I will share with you some photos and two song wanna introduce to you too...

'Never gonna be alone' by Nicke, and 'Better in time' by Leona Lewis... The second song can find in my friend's blog... So... Hope you have a happy last day of year 2009 and happy new year... Hope all of you can be better then this year...

Waist so many time to edit my photos... Hope you will like it...

Rain and Tears

Hey hey... I'm back 'gain!... Wow!... Well... Today... Happy... But still wanna stay at home... Well... So late to sleep... Hope my family don't know... Well... I've go to shopping yesterday... Free now... Because I finished my work already!... Ha ha... Not pressure anymore... Free... Free... Free...!

Well... Go to shopping with my family yesterday... Well... We have shop so many place... Sasa, Padini, P&Co, Urban & Co and so many places... Ha ha... Just wanna share with all of you... Don't think too much... Mm... I have buy a trousers at Jusco, and buy a shirt at Romp... Ha ha... Happy... Well... After happy, I have a little bit sad... Because I use my money to buy these shirt... Sad... My 100 dollar... My hundred dollar is gone... Just have 60 dollar only... It waist my money... But it is worth... Maybe have a little proud... Because I don't like other people... Using their parents' money to buy something...( But sometime me too...)... Use my money to buy something, I have a little bit hurt... That my money, and I use them... Mm... I think some of you can't feel this feeling... Because all of you using your parents' money... So don't know the pain when you're trying hard to get the money... Well... Someday you will feel this... Trust me...

Mm... Just one day... Tomorrow is 31st already...the last day of year 2009... Have a little bit sad... Because I don't wanna go back to school... Too many gossip, and I don't wanna to see many people... That weird... Well well well... No rain these day, and no tears these year... Don't know... Can't cry anymore... I think I don't have any tears... Even I face something bad, sad, angry or something that's not good, I can't cry... No tears... Well here have a song wanna share with you... Mm... Maybe I have introduce to you last time... But, one more time to introduce this song... 'Rain and Tears' by Aphrodite's Child... It is a good song, and hope you will enjoy it...

P.S: I also have some photos wanna share with you too... Hope you like it!

My sexy shorts with Romp's shirt...

'Cheese!'

So tight? Well... Okay... Not so...

My dinner in Pasta Zanmai... Taste good!

Take photo with my Milky Macha...

I'm in Pasta Zanmai!

I love this shirt so much... I buy it when I'm stay in Malacca

Sweet pink! I take this photo in my aunt's shop... A Baby House!... Ha ha...

Three Days, two days....

Well well well... Nice to meet all of you 'gain... Does everybody miss me?... Ha ha... Well... I don't think so... Ha ha... Cause everyone is busy now... Mm... Well... I have know something... That 'bout the guy I say that before... Now good... He block me in my MSN... So great... He think that I don't know... But sorry... I always know... He don't wanna be my friend?... Well that's okay... I just let him go... Before I'll be hurt... But now? No hurt anymore... Because I have someone... Someone who cares me, who love me like a friend... No need to sad... Because that call people!... I know, I can't be hurt by people anymore... The world is good, but I'm EVIL! I'm not a good guy... Homosexual?... Well, if all of you ask me this thing before, I'll reject your question... But now, if you ask me now, I'll tell you:' Maybe. But have 80%, YES!'... Why? Why everyone can't just accept Homosexual?... They are normal right?... So?... If people hate me... Okay... Just let them... That won't my problems....

Well well... I have go to Malacca last week... Stay at there 'bout 2 night... Well... I have taking so many photos... In car, in hotel's toilet, in the shopping center and the fitting room... That my favorite... Nice huh?... Well... Just see... Because not everyone like my style... So... Just... Enjoy!... Well... Go there... Just... Have to visit so many museum... and can't take photos there... I have walking in the rain... Because those day always raining... So... Just walking... Ha ha... Wet body!... I have having my 'little spa' in my hotel... Seem like a girl... But... I don't care... Enjoy right?... Ha ha.... Mm... I have buy a big lollipop... Cute... I have buy because I have see a handsome guy there... So... Just wanna see him... Sorry my guy... I still love you... Ha ha...

Well... Go back to Johor to help my aunt... To count the goods... Well well well... That's not so difficult when you hear... But, if you do... It was difficult... So tired there day... Have to count the profit of the goods, and check the list... So many things to do... Well... Now, I can breve... Hahn... My lovely air...

Well well... Only have a few day that year 2009 gone... Ready to welcome a new year... Year 2010... Well...Have a new song wanna introduce to everyone in here 'gain... 'Time to say goodbye' by Andrea Bocelli and Sarah Brigh... This song is very popular to me... A good song... Share with all of you too... So... Good night... And have a nice day too...

Hey... Just smile><

At the window... Outside raining now...

Seem like a rabbit... right?

Wow! Sexy man><... Ha ha...

I wanna buy this shirt... But it's too expensive... So... Let it go....

Well... Still like a girl... Ha ha...

Pink shirt... Love the color...

Did you see... My sexy shorts~

In the hotel's toilet... Beautiful!

Like my glasses so much!!

Acting... acting... acting....

Modeling Life

Hey guys... I'm back 'gain... Well... Have a good news to me... I no need to go back to school anymore... Because I have finished my holidays' tuition already... Ha ha... I feel free now... Mm... I have go back to my hometown a few days ago... To attending a wedding... Ha ha...

Well... On the road... I have take many picture on my father's car... Maybe some of you think that it's ugly... But I think it's beautiful to me... The photos can makes me to walk higher... Be professional... Ha ha... I don't think I will be a model... But I like the camera... That why my hand-phone have camera's function... Ha ha... Mm... I have a little drunk in the wedding... Maybe I have drink so many beer... I drink it just like drink a water... Ha ha... But I have did nothing that night... Ha ha... I still have my first time... Haven't sex with other guys... I'm still 'clean'... Well... I always sleep... After taking photos, I going to sleep... Sleep in the car... Just like a sleep beauty... Ha ha...

Here have some photos that I wanna share to all of you... They take in my father's car and my garden... It looks beautiful... Mm... And then, I wanna introduce some song to all of you... Mm... Just like 'Sober' by Pink, 'Zero Gravity' by David Archuleta... If all of you have some good song, must have to introduce to me... Okay?... Now I wanna some new song... Ha ha...

Well... In the end... I wanna say bye to everyone... This is my shortest post... Ha ha... Well... Hope everyone have a good day... Happy everyday...

Act cute? Maybe...

Don't know what pose is it... Just like this

Missing thing? Yup... Miss my boy

I like this so much... Smile happily

Is it looks good? Yup... I just edit it... Looks like a girl

Who gonna know? God know

Well... Still like before... Hi to everyone here... Well well... December comes... What would you do? Shopping? Chatting? Otaku-ing? Or another else... Mm... I still have go to tuition these day... Oh my God!... Feel so tired everyday... Because everyday wanna use your brain to think... To think the calculation of the Mathematic's exercise... Quiet difficult right?... Well... No more calling my loveliest friend these day... The phone bill come... Well... Last month, I use RM26 to talk with him in phone... Well... I know it's not so good... But in the end... Scold by my stupid mother... I know the bill is so expansive... Well... Now... I'll try my best... Don't use my home phone... But use my cell phone...

Well well... My father go to Taiwan already... So... I think he will come back by 3th December... Mm... One week already... I don't see my father one week... Can't believe it, right?... Well... This is the truth... So... Now... I just have shopping with my mum and sis at Kepong Jusco only... Can't go shopping at Midvalley... So boring... But... I still have ask my Father to buy a bag bag for me too... Well... So happy... I just wanna see the bag as fast as the light...

Well... I have to shopping with my mum and sis... Kepong Jusco... Well... I just wanna buy a sunglasses at there... There have a lot of choices... Well... Use many time to find one sunglasses is suitable for me... Well... In the end... I found it!... It cost RM23.12... Not so expensive right?... And I buy it myself... So hurt... Well... We have go to Nicole to buy some shirt... Well... So nice... There have discount these day... Well... I have choose a shirt... A yellow shirt... Take so many photos in the fitting room there... And when I go home... I have edit my photo... One of those photos of mine was so modeling... So... I have to edit like a model of Nicole... Looks beautiful... So... I just show it to all of you in the end of my blog... Hope all of you like it...

Mm... I have some song wanna to introduce to everyone here... Well... So hard to find these song... But it's worth... Song by Katherine Jenkins... A good vocal from England...'Canto Della Terra', ' I Vow to Three my Country' and ' Vide Cor Meum'... I love her sound so much... And some of you like the jazz type song? or a Blues type song? Well... I also have a good song from 20th Century... 'I don't wanna miss a thing' by Aerosmith... These song quiet good... So... Hope all of you will enjoy it... And the end... Have a nice day to everyone here...

My 'Modeling' photo... Take it in the fitting-room...

The 7th Day of My Holidays' life

Hi to everyone here 'gain... Well well... Do you happy enjoy this holidays life?... I guess most of you are happy... Go shoppin', gathering... Talking with friend using the phone, chatting with friend using MSN, or SMS... *I guess most of you don't use ICQ already... Do you?*... Well... It looks like so enjoy... But... My holidays... Feel boring and... FUCK!

Mm... Well... The story start form 21th November... Well, I sleep at 4.30a.m. before this day... But... This day... My fucking mum wake me up... For what?!... For my tuition... I never think that I could have a tuition this holiday... But... She find a teacher to teach me in school... What a fucking thing!... You do this thing without my permission?!... What the fuck!... Hate that!... Well, if the lesson of my tuition is Mathematics... Never mind... But... Not Math., is Physic!... Fuck!... I hate this lesson so much!... Do you know what my physic's result in my final exam?... If you don't know... Now, I tell you... Just 46 marks only!... Do you know why?... Because I hate physic so much... It looks like a none calculation of my life... But... Anyway... The physic teacher comes, so, have anything I can do? or any thing I can change? No!... So... Just go on...

40 Days of holidays... Well well... Seem like the time is so short... Why just 40 days... But... To me... It quiet too long... I don't want miss him as 40 days long... You know, it's painful, more than staying in the hell... Well, I don't care anything... I just wanna see him... Don't know why... Maybe I scold him before... In the holiday too... I think, I'm not good right? Not a good student, not a good friend, not a good brother in my family, and not a good listener to him... But you know that? I just wanna be a good friend, be a good listener to him... I don't care everyone say that I'm homosexual, I'm bitch, I look suck.... I don't care this type of gossip... But if he say that I'm bitch, I look suck or more... It just like a blade, a blade which hurt my heart... The sound let me feel pain... Maybe some of you will say:' This call love.'... But you know... I don't think so... I just wanna a friend can talk to me... And I want a friend can give me more concerned... I don't say my loveliest friend can't give me these thing... But I just wanna he give me... Well... I know... Maybe he think I'm homosexual... Well... You know... I guess so... I wanna his concerned...

Well well... So sad to talk about it... Now... I didn't chat with him even he's online... I don't wanna call him, see his Facebook's profile anymore... It hurt me so deeply... So I ignore these thing... I try so hard to forget him... But... Now... I still miss him... I still remember him... I just can see him when he's online... But I didn't chat with him anymore.... Maybe I make so much of trouble to him... So... Just get away from him... Mm... These day... I just have find some Chinese song... Because I don't know what song should find... Maybe all of you can post your favorite song to my chat box... And share it with other... It looks good right?

Well well... In the end... don't know what should I say... Mm... Still like before... Hope everyone have a nice day, and enjoy yours holiday...

Friends 09'

Time Square trip and friends 09' (edited)

Well... Holidays come

Well... Wanna say 'HI!' to everyone here... But don't know how long I can still say 'Hi!'... Don't know... I hate myself! What a damn person!... Shit me!... Well... I write two letter to him... But he didn't care me... Maybe... He hate me... I make him hate me... And hate me so well, so well... Don't know what everyone thinkin' about it... But... I can't see him after 40days... My school holidays have 40days long!... How can I wait?... Wait for 40 days... Better thing to do: Die... Rest in Peace~ So, do you think this is right?... Well... My answer is: Sure! It's a great idea...

Yesterday is the last day in Junior Middle 2... Well... I can't believe that... Mm... It just like... I didn't do anything in this year... I see my result... Oh My God!... Just 66marks... Shit! I hate this mark... My loveliest friend can take 71marks, why I can't as good as him?... Well... Just can pass only... Become crazy... What should I do?... Try hard next time? No!... I don't have so much time to try, I don't have time... Just a little time... Do you know, I always think that: How about I jump down from the highest floor at a tall building... It's fun? Yes! Of course!... Does this action can let me die quickly?... Yes! The blood will flush out from my head... My brains will come out later... Someone cryin', vomiting, shouting... It's sound good, Huh?... But... Every time I wanna do this, something have stopped me... Who? Jesus? Angels? Demon? or someone else?... Don't know... Someone save me from the dark... But just don't know who is he... Is it he? or my friend?... Don't know... Just see

Go Time Square with my friend... Well... My loveliest friend also go there with me... We are playing in the theme park... Well... When I play game, I'm not happy... Because... I just think about him... Does he go out? or just stay at home?... Most of the question is come from him... Someone said, this is love... But, I think, This is care... I just take care for something, someone... It's not calling love... If this is love... Well... I will goin' to be a homosexual!...

Mm... Well... Here have some song wanna introduce to everyone here... The modern song that I wanna introduce is 'Whatcha say' by Jason Derulo... and the continue song is come from a movie, 'Les Choristes'... It is a good movie... Well, the song I introduce from here is 'Vois sur ton Chemin', 'Les Avions en Papier', 'Lueur d'Ete', 'In Memoriam', 'Compere Guilleri' and 'Caresse sur L'ocean'... Hope everyone here will enjoy in these classical song and a modern song... Have nice day

Back to Normal

Well... First... I post these video to everyone here... Hope all of you love it... It is a classical song and two Japan girls change it to the Jazz edition... It sound so good to me... One of these video show like a song written in the 20th century...I think it sound good to everyone here... Enjoy!

Well... Tuesday... I go back to school... Well... It's weird... I didn't talk so much to everyone in my class... I don't know what I wanna share with them... So... We just talk a little... Most of my time is waist on writing diary... I don't know why... Maybe I have many thing to write down... Well... I think I better to be alone... These days, my loveliest friend didn't take care about me... Maybe he is busy these day... That's why he didn't care about me... He have to perform the drum in 7th November... Wish him good luck and all the best... Well... Before school days, I think my class will be free, teacher will not teaching at all... But... It's difference... All of my teacher teaching when having their lesson... Now, just my Chinese teacher have give us relax... Well... I hope can go back to the holiday... No more pressure...

Mm... I just came back from school... Well... Just writing blog... Doin' nothing... I miss him... I didn't see him these days... But... If we meet... I don't know what should I talk with him... Music? He's professional than me in these thing... School life? Well... It's too boring... So... In the end... The conclusion is: I don't know what should I talk with him when I meet him... So... Just miss him... To me... It's enough...

Well... Write until here... Hope everyone have a Nice day... Wish all of you happy every day!

1st of November

Hi here! Well... Everyone have a good time yesterday? That because yesterday is Halloween! Some of my friend have celebrate this festival... Goin' pub, gathering, havin' fun in the Halloween party... Well... I don't have go anyway... Just stay at home... Watchin' movie, using computer to find some song... And also writing my diary... Yesterday is a special day to me... I don't know why... Maybe it is Halloween... So I'm happy? Think so...

Still starting with 'Well...'... Tuesday... Wanna go back to school already... Feel nervous... Think that everyone strange there... Of course some of my friend there have feel kind... But... Don't know... Maybe I'm not comfortable... Well... Don't care about it... Just think that I'm crazy...

Today... Don't have a call to my loveliest friend... Because my family member at home... Don't want they know... I always 'cook' a 'phone porridge' with him... Not only half an hour, not only a few minute... I think I have talk with him in phone more than half an hour... Maybe fifty minute... Maybe more... And I don't want my family member know about that now... Just wait the phone bill come... It's not my fault, right?... My hand-phone don't have much money, so I use home phone... It doesn't a matter... Just waitin' 14th November to reload...

Now, using computer to writing blog, find song and listen it... Is it my life? No... I don't think that I'm Otaku... Because I like to shoppin'... Love goin' to buy shirt, CD, books, accessories and more... Just like a little girl, right?... Well... I don't think so... Because I just wanna be beauty... Be the special than everyone... Ha ha ha ha... Don't be jealous... Well... Still remind my memory... Just like a old guy... My mum always say that my look always be 'tired' mode... Well... I also don't want to be like this... But... Never mind... Just being myself...

Okay now... Just write until here... Today don't have any song wanna to introduce to everyone here... But I hope everyone here can introduce some good song to me... All of you can post the song's name in my CBox... Thanks to everyone here... And wish you have a nice day...

Sunway Trip... (More photos)

Handsome Zen with me...(edited)

Cool guy! Xiang and me taking this photo after skating... Lucky me...

Two black stranger with a 'Red Hot'? Well, it is Me, Qin and San... We're inside the Sunway building...

Sunway Trip... With Teacher (=0=)o

Mm... Start with a angel... Am I an angel?... Don't know... Just I know that, I'm not a human... Just like that...

Well... Yesterday go out with my teacher... We go Sunway... But on the road, my friend call us to drive faster... Well... It may broke the rules, right?... After parking, we 'run' to meet them... We have playing ice skating there... The entrance ticket such expansive... RM13 per one person... But it's worth... We have a happy time there... I have learn to skating on the ice from my friend... Finally, I did it!... It's the happy memory to me...

After that, we have dinner there... Some of my friend and I go to A&W having our dinner... Drinking a drinks, talking, sharing our experience... Finish our dinner, we have a walk there... Taking picture at there... It such happy... But my teacher calling us to go home... Well... Finish our trip there... Go home with my teacher's car... Well... The boys behind always talking... Well... It's good to me... Not always feel alone...

Waiting my parent at the bus-stop... So many stranger there... Some of the girls there smoking... It smell like disgusting... Wanna vomit at there... Later, I see my friend there... We have a talk there... After a few minute, I go home...

It is a good memory to me... Well... Today morning, I feel pain... My hands, legs and head... Not feeling well... Maybe I have 'exercise' yesterday... Now writing blog, listen music and searching something... Oops... Forget to tell everyone here... I forget to take a photo with my loveliest friend yesterday in Sunway... Wow, he look cool there... But I forget to take a picture... Feel sad... Mm... Today... I've miss someone... Not my friend... But also my friend... Maybe... But we didn't talk these day... Feel like... so strange... Well... Stop here... Have some song have to introduce to everyone here... "She Wolf" by Shakira and "Obsessed" by Mariah Carey... Enjoy!

San and me... Friends...

Yi Ying and me...

Zen and me... We take this photo after skating... Well... A handsome taking photo with me!

Me and Yi Ying 'gain... Before skating, we take this picture together... Cute, right?